Im in a bit of a pickle

Hia!
oh wow
ive a fair few busy weeks
im so sorry i havent been blogging
ive been at the beach and with friends and have had not much time on my hands.
so news news news news.
where do i begin. oh yes..
once upon a time
i was at the beach with my sister (yep i know i already told you about this but there is one very inportant detail i forgot to mention)
she was telling me about this friend she has, and hes afraid of blood, just like me. And after a long conversation about him i found out that me and this so called guy Nixon have a whole lot in common. so she said she will introduce us. when i got to the next beach trip, he texted me, he sounded so sweet, he said
"Hey Kirsty,
you having fun at the beach?
just be careful and dont drown :P
could you text me when you get back?
looking forward to talking to ya :) xo"


:) i was happy. he seemed so perfect, and he was.
i got home and we talked all day on msn, wich followed with phone conversations and all sorts of things. I really got too know him, and although we had never met, it seemed like i had known him forever. But behind all the happiness, there was a lie. i was lying to myself thinking i could put myself out there again, becuase deep deep inside, i still liked someone. Someone by the name of Ki.

I was having fun talking to Nixon, when we get onto the conversation of who we liked, and he managed to get it out of me that it was him, but he didnt know that there was also another somone. When he thought it was right he told me he liked me, too. We both agreed that we must meet before we took this any further.

All fine and dandy now? wrong.

Then i get a call from one of Ki's friend wich i also know and am very good friends with, he knew that i liked ki, he didnt know about Nixon. He says

"Kirsty! I have great news! Ki likes you! He might ask you out when he gets back from his holiday"

I have to admit i was so exited, all this time i had kindof bottled up my feelings for Ki, and suddenly they exploded infront of me. Then i thought, oh crap. what have i done.

So now i have two guys that like me, i like both of them. and they have no idea that i like the two of them at once.

I really need help with this one. And some of you may tell me too weigh up the pros and cons but i have done tht and theyre both fairly equil. And now both of them will be heartbroken if i tell them i like the other one. And i know i willl choose one and then be like oh crap i should of chosen the other one. :S
help me :)

you guys are the best,
thanks for helping me previously in my drama filled life :S

ciao xx