He popped the "WYGOWM" question

He popped the "W.Y.G.O.W.M" question

and that WYGOWM stands for will you go out with me.


Ok guys before you start reading my happy-sad ending here, please note that i was a bit angry with what happend. So please dont judge me, i just need to be honset with you so i can get advice from you. so please comment because i need help.


And this is Jezz were talking about here.
It all started when we went into town square. I went with my sister and there was Dean, Kieran & Jezz. They were waiting by the fountain, and you could tell as i walked down the stairs, his eyes lit up. So the day went smoothly but nothing really ended up happening. See, Kieran told me that he was going to ask me out, but he was just too shy. So when we got home I went on msn to talk to Jezz because he said he would be on, it wasnt long before we navagated to the subject of going out. He asked me out with obvisly some pushing from Kieran, and of course i said yes.

So we have been going out for umm, a week i think? Yes and as i have unfortunatly found out he has his flaws, wich DONT matter but you see these flaws he has, are the ones that make me cringe, Infact i hate Them so much it has caused me to dump other people in the past becuase of it. Clingyness... I hate it. Just when every five minutes you hear your phone go off and its Jezz saying I FUCING LOVE YOU, it just makes me think. Does he even know what love is? im fairly sure that he dosent love me, its just lust. I know that i have never been in love before, I try to reslise that its only strong lust. but people who waste the word "love" too much when its fairly clear that it isnt love. That annoyes me. Second i hate the fact that he is majorly OBSESSED. He will not shut up. Ok im sounding like im being reaally mean. But i really despise these traits and i spose if i give yu the full story then you might be able to help me better if i acctually show how annoyed i am. Ok yes, so anyway. Kieran pasted something Jezz said, to me on msn. This just added to the annoyence. He was just blabbing on and on about how much he cant wait to hug me and see me again and how beautiful i was and blah blah blah. Mmm hmm i know what your thinking. "why is she annoyed he said that she was beautiful, thats lovely" NO. Hearing that word beautiul 12 times in one day when its being said about you by the same person isnt my ideal paridice. I really cant stand it.

On to the next thing, Grr. The 'kissing part'. After me realising that this was getting out of hand, i decided to call kieran. So we were on the phone talking for a good hour about everything. Jezz signed on. So i talked to him for a bit. And then signed off, though i was still on the phone to Kieran. then Kieran sighed a long hard sigh, and then said
"oh great...."
"Whats wrong?" I was a tad worried
"Kirsty? You know hou you dont really like it when your boyfriend has never kissed anyone before?"
From that moment i lost most of the lust i had for jezz, the second last part had dissapeared just like that.

OK I KNOW YOU ARE THINKING I AM I B**CH. but please dont get the wrong impression about me. Im really ussally happier and more nice than this. But right now i really want to be honset with you guys. And there is no way i will get the right advice i need from you if i put on a happy act and pretend nothing is wrong, so just keep reading. please?

SO, after that i was on the phone to cazz and she told me how bi polar he is, one minute hes friendly, the next hes yelling at cazz and threatening to commit suicide.
Wich brings me to my final concern. He is suicidal. He acts happy when were talking or when were together. But when hes talking to other people, such as cazz and other mates of his. He says things like "im going to commit suicide". Wich is worst of all. Because my love for him has mostly perrished, and if i make the decision to break it off with him. there is a 50/100 chance he might commit suicide.

Thankyou for reading till the end without exiting in anger. Just comment please i need the most help with this one.

And also, HAPPY NEW YEAR

ciao xx

Christmas again

Hey!
i just thought i would jump on and wish you all a great christmas!
Im exited about tomorow with my family. its always nice too see them because i only get too see most of them twice a year. Once at christmas time and once when we all go to the beach. I just cant wait. Its just a happy time of year.

So tonights christmas eve and my cousins are wrapped up in bed probably not sleeping waiting for santas big arrival. Holly who is three years old has put out the front of her house, a small plastic table with:
Carrots
Reindeer food (its oats and hundreds and thousands/sprinkels mixed together in a bag wich you are sposed to sprinkle on your lawn)
a big bowl of water
a chocolate for santa wich has liqure in it but she dosent know that.
and a card that we made for him.
she wants a scooter wich she asked for last minute so my auntie and uncle were in a big rush to find one still on the shelves.

yea there isnt much to talk about.
i just counted my money, i have $140.35 lol. plus the money in my bank account wich is $900 exactly. then i have $1040.35.
woo
hehe i only have that 900 in my bank account because it was something to do with my parents splitting up and i was old enough to have some of the money or something like that.

Anyway i'm going to bed now i'm quite tierd and yes its christmas tomorow. Im sure I will be waking up to open my pressies early.

Have a great day tomorow everyone
Im sure we all will.

ciao xx

The happiest Kirsty you know

well well well,

I havent stopped wearing a smile over the last couple of days.

Jezz officialy told me he liked me, infact he said that he likes me alot.

Acctually, he didnt say anything, the shy little bugger made me guess,

then he confessed. But still im the happiest person on earth!

Life is getting better and better at the moment.

• Its nearly chrismas, so i get too see my family for the one time in the year.


• Im going to the beach 3 times this holidays, all for a minimum of 3 days.


• Jezz likes me (woo!)


• Im opening dads chrissie present tonight becuase hes going to be away during christmas time seeing his mum and brothers.

Yea thats about it, but im mega happy about everything!

Me and mum bought a new d.v.d player because our old one broke. So today I made her watch St. Trinians. Thats my favorite movie. Anyway, there isnt too much elce too tell you. Im just waiting for dad to come home. I just really feel like rambling about Jezz, but i wont. Because that would be so boaring for you.

Yess thats bout it for the moment,

and Jezz just signed on!

so im going to talk to him,

haha

ciao xx

Freedom is here

Hey!
I am very pleased to announce that i am officialy on school holidays!
Yesterday we had an orientation for year nine '09. It was great, i got my elective classes too.
My classes for year nine are;
- Phycology
- Phylosophy
- Creative Writing
- Dance
- Drama Acting and Performance
- P.E
And then theres all the core subjects like Maths, English, French, Science and History.
Im so happy with my electives, compared to some of my friends, mine are the best. The only bad one i got was P.E. I only dont like it because i am so terrible at sport. I seem to always find a way to injure myself or someone around me. Not on purpose of course! But otherwise im so happy with them.

My new core class is a different story (Its the class your with for the core subjects like Maths, English, French, Science and History.), I'm with the two girls I really didnt want to be with.Theyre just plain bitchy to me for no reason. Theyre names are Renee and Chevoune. I dont like them at all they are just mean. And even worse theres Caitlin and Ellie. They are people i dont really know but i know for a fact theyre 10 times more bitch then Renee and Chev are. Im desperate to be nice to them just so they dont kill me and burn my remains. Hopefully we can become friends but i highly doubt that.

Im very happy with the fact I have Zoe and Ashley in my class. Theyre great friends and Im so happy that i will be with them all year. Ashley also has a friend in the class called Tori. Shes lovely too, so yes, there is a few nice people in the class.

I am so exited about next year i have a good feeling about it... Speaking of being exited, im seeing Jezz tomorow. He was hinting the fact he liked me last night. My stomach did way to many flips in not very much time, it could be a record. So yes, Jezz, Me and everyone elce in our group are meeting at the fountin in town square. Im just hopeing for the best. Wish me luck!

ciao xx

Absoloutly Unbearable

hello, and once again its late at night and im quite tierd.
12.41 AM to be exact.
I really have nothing to do, i dont feel like sleeping. I hate these nights. But anyway i thought i would tell you all about the absoloute boring day i had. First i woke up because my dog, Jess, was barking at my window wanting to come inside. That is becoming a habit. Ah gosh i do love her with all my heart though. If she dies (wich she will soon because shes 10) i dont know what will become of me. Anyway at 1.30-3.00 i went to singing lessons. It was my last lesson for the year so that was great, i got a candy cane and all that jazz. Yes and then i went home and sat around doing... nothing. It was shit boring. And now i dont feel like sleeping what so ever.

Oh and i forgot to mention, throughout this day of nothingness i didnt get to talk to Jezza at all. I really miss him and i am so worried about him. We were talking on msn 2 days ago n he seemed a tad angry or upset about something. Anyway this is the basic outline of the part wich i am telling you about.

Kirsty : Are you ok jezz. you seem upset.
Jezza : Well no im not.
Kirsty : You know you can trust me with this stuff. you told me about things you said you never told anyone about before.
Jezza : well no offence but im not going to tell someone tht ive only known for two weeks. i really dont know why i told you that stuff.

yess he has never ever been like that before. he was so moody and pissed off i have no idea what about but later on he said hes 'angry at himself ' for god knows what. I was so scared i had done something to bother him. anyway yesterday he apologised and said that he was just having a bad day, i was kindof greatfull that he didnt resort to suicide because there has been some talk of that lately. I really dont know what to do with him. I like him more everyday but im not even sure if he sees me as a girlfriend at all. Im pretty sure he sees me more as a shoulder to cry on. Although im always there if he needs me but i just wish he would see me as a whole lot more than that.

Argh i always get myself in such confusing positions. Like the Bob and Jim scenario. That was so unbelivbly hard to decide what to do. I really hate the fact that since i am the listener in our friend group and im the one that fixes problems, because if im the only listener, who listens to me? It sucks because i never have a second oppinion on things, people always say " you will work it out, your good at this stuff" but im not so good when it comes to me. I confuse myself. But now that i have you guys, it helps me so much. You all have great opinions and i take them all in. Be sure to cmment me and tell me your oppinion on anything, advice is gratfully accepted aswell! Sorry this paragraph has been just rambling on about nothing. One day I will ramble for you if you like. It is quite a laugh to read when i ramble about nothing. And i mean nothing nothing. Its quite hilarios.

*yawn* Sleep is dawning on me right now. Im getting more tierd. I think I will listen to my ipod. Although that will consist of getting up and finding my headphones in my floordrobe. Mabey not, I will probably trip over something. I think i will go to sleep now. Be sure to cmment, leave some advice.

Goodnight Fellow Dreamers.
ciao xx

To my dearest heart, I spoke to him today...

Hey guys,

everyday i seem to be liking this guy more and more, you probably read about him in cazz's blog some time. His name is Jezza is you dont know already. *sigh* mmhhmm yep my tummy has gone all fluttery. And for those of you who are saying 'but cazz said he liked her!', well that was a long long time ago, and i just have a slither of hope that he might like me back just as much.

Im so tierd right now, its 11.21 PM and im snuggled up in bed on my laptop. I keep making mistakes and having to backspace them and start over. Its quite annoying. Anyway, today i saw twilight with Leigh-Grace, shes my sister. She follows me on blogger. Twilight was great but they cut out so many parts from the book. It all moved too quickly for my liking. But i am in love with Edward just like every other person that walks the earth. I also loved Jasper in the movie he is quite a cutie. i love Alice too she has a great personality.... There i go again rambling on about it. Anyhoo, when we got home we did our makeup all vampireish and stuff. It was all good fun.

Im dead tierd and struggling to keep my eyes open so im going to sleep now. Sorry it was a fairly quikkie post. I will do another soon. I cant wait for christmas either! It will be great.

ciao xx

As it comes to a close...

hello again,

Im in english with Mr. Butt. He is our subsitute teacher for this period. Hes a crack up i have to say. We have free time so yes im very bored and decided to update you on a few things.

First, i am deperarte to move schools. Its mostly because im sick of my 'friend' Sam. She likes me one day and hates me the next. She is really becoming a problem, she has friends that are happy to kill anyone that she asks them to. So yes i am terribly afraid of this one.



Secondly, I have a major crush on someone, raa i cant help it. He is really nice and is always giving advice to me when i need it most. As for Bob and Jim, they are out of the question, theyre going away with Taya agaim so im guessing she will try to win back Jim and leave me in the cold. Although she dosent know about... 'us'



Thirdly, (if thats even a word), School finishes tomorow. I am very greatfull for that. I can wait to go to the beach and just let go of all the bad things that happend this year. I miss the beach all too much, so many great memories. The only bad things i can remember happening down there was last year when me and my friend Tessa (i take her down there every year) got badly sunburnt, but that didnt stop us from having the best trip every. It was amazing, but this year im afraid i will be boy scaning till i find a possible candidate, and hopefully i will.



Some people in my grade are playing call of duty 4 on someones laptop. All i can hear is people being shot. Calming, isnt it? Cazz is away today, she is missed alot...

Today we watched Team America in class, the teacher thought it was thunder birds, luckily enough. The sex scene was played over and over untill they got bored of naked puppets. Sad really.

Anyway im going to the shops with my sister/twin Felicity/Scarlet moon. Lots of slashes there. See we dont look like eachother because we are freternal twins. It means were basicy twins that dont look like eachother, look it up.

ciao xx

Almost over...

g'day guys,

school is almost finished, i am so exited about the summer

its my favorite time of year to spend with my friends.

Anyway... news news news

umm well first of all im sick of school very much and cant wait for holidays,

next year is year nine and my teacher is kindof scaring our class that we wil fail next year, i have a feeling i will but im certanly hoping not,

ummmm i still havent seen Bob or Jim since i went away with them, i miss them so much,

and i found out i am distantly related to princess Dianna! shit im so bloody happy i may be a princess one day, lol ok exaggerating a tad but hey!

i think i gotta go to the dentist now :\
how sad

ciao xx