My heart surrenderd.

Im. In. Love.

no i dont just like a guy like every other on this blog.
im never leaving.
i love you daniel.
never ever ever will i be so stupid as to go through that many usless boys who ment nothing
when you were here all along.

And the walls have ears but they dont have eyes so you do not have to dress in disgisue

hmmmm

wel hai thare :0

is my birthday on sunday

1st of november

yay!

photos :D

so exiting

well yes that was from the party that me and flicck had. it was lots of fun :)

hehehe

im home sick today :o

oooh nooo

it sucks.

but is okay cuz i will hopefully be better by sunday

:D

ciao xx

Cant Imagine Life Without You, Litterally.

Okay
been ages,
hi
how are you?
good?
thats good to hear.

So, guy I like is talking to my friend and it turns out he only has one sister because the other one died :(
i was so destressed, and it didnt even happen to me.
it never ever occored to me how horrible life would be, knowing one of the people you love will never live to see the world, never see you in your best and worst moments.
it got me thinking, more than ussual.
what would i do if someone died?

even the thought of my dog dying (shes 12 so its been comming for a while :/) brings me to tears. Imagine life without my sister, i wouldnt feel there was a need to live anymore.


one thing ive realised, is too embrace everything you have, because nothing will last forever.


ciao xx

And You Know Its Never Simple, Never Easy

HEYYYYYY
well guys its been ages

everything has changed since last time i wrote in.
well lifes fairly good,
im in year 9
and its fabulous :)
the people in my classes are nice
and my life is getting better
and the best part is
ive met a guy
and his name is Haydn
and he is like a boy version of me
silly immature and just loves laughing and mucking around
he. is. perfect.
not one flaw.
magic.
and he asked me out.


Ive decided i want to be a teacher when im older. Primary school. I love kids so much.
It would be so good.
Ive made so many good friends. Im very happy.. And it made me realise how unhappy i was last year. Skipping from boy to boy covering up how unhappy i was. I read all my old posts and i think the main reason i was so unhappy was cuz my friends wernt real friends. The good ones stood the test of time and theyre still with my luckily :)

sorry i havent beeen on in forever.
got a bit carried away in my happiness :)
ciao xx

Vlog 4 - Swine Flu

haha enjoy :)

some pointers of whats been going on

• Me and Adam broke up
• I dont like Angus anymore at all hes like my best friend
• I like someone new (argh i know your probably like shit wtf she likes too many people)
• His name is Tom

Its dads birthday tomorow i got him a shirt :)

yay!

ciao xx

Vlog 3 - Steriotypes

hey dudes and dudetts.

once again a new vlog :)

hehehe yeahhhhh.

well Angus was away from school today i think hes been vomiting.

not goooood :S

I miss him :(.

http://www.youtube.com/user/neofuneight99

kirsty-madeleine@hotmail.com

ciao xx

When im with him im thinking of you

Hey,
Adam and I broke up.
Need i say more?
He came over, and it was terrible.
He was trying to hug and kiss me and i just kept moving away. I hated it, because I dont like him anymore.
I feel so much better now though.
Im freee!
Anyway
BIG NEWS
haha
last night i had a sleepover with Kieran and Angus. It was awesome. Haha it was sooooo fun!
Kieran fell asleep at about 2 and Angus and I stayed up till 5.30. Yay! It was such a good night.
I loved it because it gave me the chance to get to know him better.
And now I like him more than ever, Shit.
lol.
AND no im not going to go out with Angus any time soon. That would be stupid. Im going to wait AT LEAST 3 weeks. mmmmm.
Arghh im pretty stressed atm. So much to do.

ahh well :)

ciao xx

When a heart breaks, it don't break even

Heyyy,


Yep I have a problem.
Love triangle alert.
yeah
okay
I love Adam heaps and heaps, and I wouldnt dream of breaking his heart, but theres this other guy called Angus. And yeah He likes me at the moment.
You know that thing where when someone likes you, and you just get really curious as to how it would turn if you gave them a try? yeah well i had that for a while, and in that time we became closer. And now i acctually like him, almmost as much as Adam.

Adam has no idea Angus even exists too. They barley know eachother. Mmm i spose that makes it easier. But I dont want to dump Adam ESSPECIALLY not to go out with someone elce, because thats really mean.

What I decided I would do is have Adam over and see weather I still like him as much (since its holidays and I havent seen him since school). Hes comming over tomorow and yeah im worried, I hope its all okay, and yet part of me dosent hope its okay, because about half of me wants to go out with Angus.

ARGHH torn.

ciao xx

Vlog 2 - Our epic walk to the shops

Hey!

I miss you all so much

Its holidays now, thank god, not that im not still banked up on homework but atleast i dont have teachers on my back nagging me to hand it in. There hasnt been much going on i spose. Last night was fun, me and Flick stayed up together last night. Ussally we go to bed at different times but tonight we kindof had like a sleepover haha. It was fun we ended up staying up till 4! It was fun but I slept in her room on the floor cuz yeah we wanted to just have a massive chat n stuff but the matteress was sooo uncomfortable because its one of those super-thin ones for scout camps and stuff (cuz Flick does scouts) so Yeah i slept on that. Haha.

Other news.

Me and Jezz are like bff again rofl. Hes really good as a friend and yeah i intend on keeping it that way.

Me and Adam are still going strong wich is great.

Im so happy with this year of school so far. Its been soo good. Not the working part, just like making new friends and meeting new people! Theres a lot of new people that have enrolled in the school too, and I always love being the friendly one and being the first to say hi :).

Im quite annoyed at something thats been happening. My friend Sam, who I love and support, even though we have had quite a few falling outs. Well her boyfriend is giving me the shits. He thinks he can controll her. She met him over myspace, which wasnt very safe at all but luckily enough he wasnt a 40 year old perv. And she met up with him and then they went out and yeah. Now hes an absoloute controll freak. e.g. Yesterday me and her arranged with a few other guys, who are friends of ours, to meet at the shops. But when he asked her on the day if he could go to her house, and she told him about our plans, HE FORBID HER FROM COMMING! I was pretty annoyed, we had been planning this for a while and finnaly when we got it together he went nuts at her. I was so pissed off, he wrecked it for not only her, but for me and the rest of them aswell.

Yep that left me in a bad mood.

Anyways otherwise im okay I spose. I miss you guys heaps. Please add me on msn or e-mail me cuz i would love to talk to you

kirsty-madeleine@hotmail.com

and heres me and flicks Youtube channel

http://www.youtube.com/user/neofuneight99

:D

ciao xx

Not that much going on..

heloo for the first time in a long time.
well yess theere hasnt been too much exept for,

• There was a fire across the road from my house! We had to evacuate and everything it was so scary. Luckily they put it out in time. :)
• I made friends with Adams ex girlfriend. There was a bit of a scare with her because people told other people who told other people who told me that she still liked him and she was trying to win him back, and that she hated me because i 'stole' her boyfriend. Even though she was the one who dumped him, for someone elce, on msn... But its okay cuz were friends now.
• Um i got sick again. Wich isnt good. Im preying that this sickness thing dosent get any worse. I cant remember if ive told you guys but I have this problem with my immune system and it wont fight anything off so if like someone walks past me and theyre sick then i get it, and I get it bad. It lasts for ages and its worse than normal. Its quite depressing and also the fact ive never been immunised against anything dosent help.
• Its weird because me and Jezz are good friends again.
• One of my friends got caught drinking by her mum and shes grounded till like forever :(. Ive never acctually gone out drinking before and yeah, its mainly because i dont want to get sick from it like vomit and stuf, I hate vomit.
• I uploaded a video of myself singing on youtube! Haha i was soooo nearvous. I sounded terrible.
• And finally, i just found out that one of my majorly awesome people that i love love love on youtube has a blog! i was sooo happy and yeah now im following her. hehehe

Yeasss thats about it for today.

ciao xx

Our First Vlog :)

Me and my sisters first Vlog.

Hope you enjoy :P

there isnt much news going on atm.

Adams coming back tomorow :)

im exited, as anyone would be.

hopefully i can see him this weekend, because its a long weekend.

hehehe

ciao xx

My life would suck with out you, no wait, scrap that, My life would be heaven without you

I am so pissed off at a certain someone. Shes making me so angry. Argh i felt like murdering someone yesterday.


Anyway. Adams back in 3 days.
Im dying inside i miss him so so so so so much
haha but enough about adam, on to a serious note,

Today we had the day off, because the fires are so close to us.
I live in an area where it is so full of trees that you can hardly see the neighbours house.
So the fires are rapidly moving towards us. Im very worried. The winds are so strong right now.
If they do come, I dont know where we will go. We have nowhere.
Its pretty scary, if you can imagine.

ciao xx

Waiting... and some awesome news too!

Dont you hate waiting?
Adam has gone to queensland for 9 days
*sigh*
Its 7 days from tomorow though.
I miss him like crazy
Its so depressing
but im okay and i will get over it

Now to some awesome news
Me and my sister Flick are going to make a vlog!
i will post each new video we make onto this blog aswell as some writing about whats been happening in my life.
Im hoping it will put some extra spice into my blog because i havent been on much recently and ive noticed not too many people are reading anymore.
Remeber all comments are welcome!
So we will put the vlog on youtube aaaand a myspace aswell
so yess!

there really isnt anything elce interesting happening at the moment
im so boaring

ciao xx

Life is fun, Dreams will Come, Songs will be sung, heyup

Hey. Im in Class with Molly and The Kaskamatron.

lol boaringggggg.

I'm fairly tierd today. You know why Im tierd? Because Im not with Adam, Its always such a drag not being with him. Im not kidding, I think its love. Full blown, hold on to a pole because you will blow away love. I have no idea if im correct, it might possibly be just, you know. Lust. But im not sure. I dont know, but i dont care. I just want to scream to everyone telling them how i feel about him. He is just the sweetest thing.



Nixons been acting weird lately. Flick thinks somones hacked onto his account. I was asking him all theese personal questions that i knew the answer too so maybe i could catch him out. But he kept saying how much he loved me and how i should be going out with him, not Adam. I acctually called him after that, but my number was on private. So i called him and the first thing he said was "who's this?". I just said that its Kirsty, then as i started to speak, he hung up. He hung up on me. The only reason i was calling him was because i wanted to ask him weather it was acctually him on msn. it was very strange.

hmm so yep Life is good. Kinda a blur. Everything goes by so fast now. Its been like a week or something since i last blogged and i didnt even realise. haha. As they say, time flys by when your having fun, ayy? who are they anyway?

Im so sorry i havent been commenting either. You know what? Im going to do a massive comment round right now. I will read everyones blog and commment!!!


Okay im off guys,
talk soon
Oh and by the way,
HAPPY 20th POST!
haha

ciao xx

WOW

OH MY GOD
im so sorry guys
i havent blogged in months!
well well well i have lots of stories to share.

i will dot point some things first

• Nixon and me havent spoken in ages
• I have a boyfriend
• Ive just started year 9
• School is fun
• Ive made new friends
• Im practicly starting a new life
• I havent heard from Jezz in ages

Im so happy at the moment that i havent been this happy in ages

My boyfriends name is Adam. He is one of the most wonderfull and awesome guys i have ever met. I am so happy to be with him and even though we have only been going out for a while I really think this is going somewhere I really like him!

Nixon and me arnt even close to being friends anymore. I do miss him, but i feel like if i became friends with him again he would start to like me again. I feel bad for him. I liked him alot n then we just stopped talking, just like that. And now i dont know where we stand.

Iva made so many new friends and Im so happy. I dont remember my old life of year 8 anymore. I love all my new classes and my new teachers and all the new people! I have a feeling this will be a good year.

Im a bit annoyed because some of my old friends im not as close with anymore. I miss being best best friends with Zoe and Cazz. Theyre still very good mates of mine and i love them so much weve just all drifted apart a bit. I miss them alot.

Im really sorry for being boaring and no posting. :S

haha okay im off, im talking to Adam :)

Talk soon okay?

ciao xx

Kirsty-Madeleine, do you take Nixon as your lawfully wedded husband?

hey
haha me and Nixon got fake married.
My sister, her boyfriend jake, Nixon and I were talking on msn in a massive convo n then we got onto the subject of marrige and flick said

"hey lets get married, on msn i mean"



lol it was funnny, we said vows and everything it was hilarios.
so now im married to Nixon and shes married to Jake.

haha
it was a weird convo i will tell you that.

were meeting up sunday 15th feb
1 day after valentines day
woo


and i got an ipod thingo on my blog.
its cool im always on it to listen to all the songs.


hah and i do have news!
not that good though
well, Jezz has another 'thing' for me again. hmm. i hope he dosent get too over the top and decide to ask me out again. everytime i sign on he comes on about 10 seconds later. and he talks more than often too. its weird.

thats everything!

oh and school goes back on tuesday. tomorow!
its exiting, year 9.
were now officialy the naughty ones ;)

ciao xx


p.s the time is soo screwed up on this.
its acctually only 12.30 AM
hehe

I Got Tagged!

Here's the rules of this tag game





1. Choose the 4th folder where you store your pictures on your computer.

2. Select the 4th picture in the folder.

3. Explain the picture.

4. Tag 4 people to do the same. - im not going to tag if you read it and want to do it then go for it :)








lol sorry, i was a poser!
this was me when i was little. hehe


umm yes about the nixon thing.
i was wrong.
the girl was just a friend.
ah.
and he does like me.
it all seems so stupid now. how could i think that?
oh well. its all in the past i spose.
so were cool now, were meeting up on sunday also with my sister and her boyfriend.
its funny because me and my sister are best friends and Nixon and Flicks boyfriend, Jake, are best friends aswell.

yeah, its sorta a double date, but not really. :)

thanks for the advice.



ciao xx

*Sigh*

Well hello for another evening.
Its 41 degrees outside and its 10.44PM
So for a starter that dosent help my mood.


I woke up too the sound of my phone ringing, im always so delusional when that happens. I ussally dont know where my phone is or how to answer. But i got there. It was Simon. I was sposed to be going to the shops today with Ki & him. I was soo exited. He wanted to know what time we were going and stuff, then he hung up too call Ki while i got ready. Then my phone rang again with simon saying Ki got groundded and couldnt come, so we decided not to go just us two, that would be awkward. I was soo dissapointed. It was 50 degrees by that stage so i decided to get out of the house and go too the shops with mum and my sister, we met one of out friends there too. It was much cooler in the shopping center.

Then when i got home i stayed on the computer. all day. I swear there is hardly anything to do on hot days. I cant go outside, walk to the shops, walk Jess (my dog) or go to friends houses. It was annoying, but i thought i felt like playing sims 2 on my computer, so i played for ages. It wasnt really a fun day so my mood was almost at its lowest, i had zero tollerence for everything.

So I went on msn. And i had a sad face in my name, only cuz i was so annoyed about my day. and Nixon was on. So we talked for a while n then he went offline. So i read back over the convo. Wowo i sounded like a bitch. I was answering in one word to everything. He mustof gotten pissed off i wasnt being friendly, not that he was really himself either, then i spotted something elce. in his message under his name, it said ILY MAGGIE (L). I was so shocked. See it could just be he has a friend he loves, in a friendish kindof way. but i rekkon he has a girlfriiend. and thats what brings me too now. right this second. i texted him a minute ago it says


im sorry. i shouldnt ignore you just because im sad. im such a bitch. come back online. please?

but he hasnt texted back, or come online. I dont know what to do. now im scared ive hurt him unintentionally and he wont even text me.

so yes, im waiting eagerly for his name too pop up saying online.

ciao xx

Im in a bit of a pickle

Hia!
oh wow
ive a fair few busy weeks
im so sorry i havent been blogging
ive been at the beach and with friends and have had not much time on my hands.
so news news news news.
where do i begin. oh yes..
once upon a time
i was at the beach with my sister (yep i know i already told you about this but there is one very inportant detail i forgot to mention)
she was telling me about this friend she has, and hes afraid of blood, just like me. And after a long conversation about him i found out that me and this so called guy Nixon have a whole lot in common. so she said she will introduce us. when i got to the next beach trip, he texted me, he sounded so sweet, he said
"Hey Kirsty,
you having fun at the beach?
just be careful and dont drown :P
could you text me when you get back?
looking forward to talking to ya :) xo"


:) i was happy. he seemed so perfect, and he was.
i got home and we talked all day on msn, wich followed with phone conversations and all sorts of things. I really got too know him, and although we had never met, it seemed like i had known him forever. But behind all the happiness, there was a lie. i was lying to myself thinking i could put myself out there again, becuase deep deep inside, i still liked someone. Someone by the name of Ki.

I was having fun talking to Nixon, when we get onto the conversation of who we liked, and he managed to get it out of me that it was him, but he didnt know that there was also another somone. When he thought it was right he told me he liked me, too. We both agreed that we must meet before we took this any further.

All fine and dandy now? wrong.

Then i get a call from one of Ki's friend wich i also know and am very good friends with, he knew that i liked ki, he didnt know about Nixon. He says

"Kirsty! I have great news! Ki likes you! He might ask you out when he gets back from his holiday"

I have to admit i was so exited, all this time i had kindof bottled up my feelings for Ki, and suddenly they exploded infront of me. Then i thought, oh crap. what have i done.

So now i have two guys that like me, i like both of them. and they have no idea that i like the two of them at once.

I really need help with this one. And some of you may tell me too weigh up the pros and cons but i have done tht and theyre both fairly equil. And now both of them will be heartbroken if i tell them i like the other one. And i know i willl choose one and then be like oh crap i should of chosen the other one. :S
help me :)

you guys are the best,
thanks for helping me previously in my drama filled life :S

ciao xx

Not Really Awake

*sigh*
I am so absolutly sick of my sister.
When we went away we had to sleep in the same bed and it was horible.
She makes weird noises, i sortof remember that from when we were little.
Anyway, im just sick of her, sick of the beach... sick of waiting for exiting things to happen.


Im exited about school now. I get sick of the holidays is big blocks, I rekkon they should give us random like 2 day holidays through out the year and at christmas and new year give us like 3 weeks. It would be nice to have many small holidays.

This will be a short post because well, i have nothing to talk about atm.
Im tierd and i feel like crap. :(
I just want to sleep, let my dreams resolve it all.

Im off,
ciao xx